finals leave me

like a gum wrapper on the sidewalk

am exhausted
want to make out

flabbergasted

second day of december

my my how the time....

i finally had the chance to open my pop-up oliver the other reindeer advent calendar

besides that happiness or rather complacentness is afoot

let's see how long it'll last
let the holiday season begin

i beat children

i should stop presuming that people taller than me are automatically older and stronger than me. not saying of course that i am a figure similar to Mighty Mouse in strength or super hero-ness. Nor am i saying i am scrappy in any shape or form.

but i feel as though people should not be bruised as a result of a wine and cheese party. or rather i should not have a part in bruising anyone at a wine and cheese party.

use your words, not your fists of fury.

i am single for a reason

just as dickinson had done several years ago

im just not willing to die for beauty just yet
but bitterness, im getting there

to be elusive

or to be the seemingly sloppy opposite...

have been wondering such a thought for the past week
and have yet to decided on which to do

reading has taken the forefront of all activities

the cold breeze of autumn has set in,
and with it the uncompromising sigh of loneliness


cheers,

resuming

life and the ever ever hopeful pursuit of happiness

and also
nancy is pregnant!
and i have final internet access

and there's a new george in my life


sincerely,

the to-do list

1) return duplicate purchase at saks fifth
2) return unfitted shirt to banana
3) pay bills with ease
4) eat at least two meals a day
5) clean room
6) strongly reconsider returning over-priced purchase to co-op
7) to live through a seventy five hour work week

sincerely,
justin kim

lonliness

it is palpable once again as anticipated/dreaded
but it's suffocating, more so than the heavy humidity upon us all

and no i do not believe in long winded entries

short and sweet more so does the trick
succinctly is the way to go

although now without pigster
i have no one to talk to about my inner and/or outer secrets

i miss you

you were a good pig

^____^

death

i still don't know how to cope with it

weeds: a new season

so while i was perusing through manhattan

i have witnessed posters for oh yes
could it be?

the new season of weeds?
hurrah!

so in honor of such an occasion i made this purty little tree out of hypericum berry stems
while providing my biological mother with excellent manual labor

(hence i got screamed at)

yaay weeds

although nothing in reality is going as sweet as the show is

anyhow

cheers

no fucking way

"Andy Chen ’09, originally from Los Angeles , California , is concentrating in Sociology with a certificate in East Asian Studies. Chen’s most notable contribution to campus has been as the founder and co-manager of the Student Design Agency , filling a much-needed niche for student graphic design. The agency has been wildly successful in its first two years under Chen’s management and even sponsored a national design conference on campus this spring. In addition, Chen helped Rockefeller College open the new 4B Holder Media Center . However, not all of Chen’s design work goes through the agency, as he often contributes pro bono to good causes around campus, such as the recent “Own What You Think” campaign encouraging students to take a stand behind what they say or think. Class of 2010 president Connor Diemand-Yauman shares that Chen is “compassionate about what he does and he helps people for all the right reasons. He lends himself and his services without question…If the true spirit of Princeton is anything like Andy Chen, then this is an excellent university indeed.” Chen also serves the campus through spiritual means. After visiting India this past summer on the Martin Dale Summer Award, Chen became a certified yoga instructor and now teaches free yoga classes at Whitman College . Chen is also a Princetonian Idol winner and was also a performer and original organizer of the Butler Open Mic Nights. "

i am speechless

bitter as i may be

the last post was a bit

childish?

so let's utilize the web
and not whine and moan

sincerely,
justin


oh and my ivy died
so in light of spring
am planting wild flowers in place
in memorandum

not - just because i decided to pretend poor ol' ivy did not exist

divorce

it was an amicable one

i just dont understand why i am so sad

swallowing mouthwash

i have just managed to swallow a mouthfull of Crest mouthwash
i was gargling and i sat down on my desk
to resume
Feminist Manifesto by the ever so lovely Mina Loy
when the ever so surprise my body had of sitting down apparently too quickly/roughly
had let a force go through my body that surprised my tonsils
and permitted the flow of the ever so enticing clear Crest Pro-Health Night down my throat
and although the label assures me that i have no reason to call poison control or any form of emergency contact
i'm a bit unsure

for the label states

"do not swallow"
"if more than used for rinsing is accidentally swallowed, get medical help or contact a Poison Center right away"

and you know.. i'm not sure exactly how much is required/directed to be used
hence i might have drunk a bit too much

however,
the drinking of the mouthwash has cleaned up my phlegm and my cold is a little more easier to live with

oh and my poor ivy (named Ivy) has gotten so dusty due to lack of sunlight and circulation on my desk
hence it must brave the cold and be near my window where at least the heating would create some sort of circulation

cheer up Ivy!

dear justin

i am more than glad to hear
that you snapped out of it and realized how stupid in fact your ex is indeed
how wildly imaginative your mind has been for the past few weeks as to why
that boy would instant message you out of all the people in the world

and as you answered him befuddled, and ignored him after typing the words, "hello" "fine"
you were left a bit unsettled and unsure of what exactly happened
ah! but yes you did the correct thing indeed
you ignored his plea to continue the conversation

and now you have finally realized ! yes at this very moment you realized!
that he has imed you, because he was showing off the fact that he had re-established communication post-adulterous relationship with your ex!

ah! how foolish you feel now, for not realizing something so simple
but it is fine now, it will be much better for you now
for you see, now you have finally realized that your ex
isn't the most clever nor the most smartest of people when it comes to the people he lets enter

so now run and be free
for you have finally let go of every single regret, and every single strain of emotion

ecstatic
i am

dear reader and you, justin

do not be upset, do not be heartbroken

one cannot be jealous of the actions of others
when you clearly discarded that opportunity to perform that action a year ago
because, it just doesn't make sense

im not so much jealous
as i am disappointed (in myself)

note to self****
take lots of pictures,
but burn all after acquaintance has been ended

hey manhattan

i miss manhattan (and a bit of brooklyn) and all of its little and large quirks

chinese new year is coming up
what will you be doing?
new years resolution post-chinese-new-year to be up

p.s. manhattan, do you miss me?

2007 retrospect

the year of two thousand and seven has been overly analyzed and inspected
yet i would like a more concise, paraphrased, simplified draft of my year
hence i attempt,

purchases:
number of cashmere: two
pairs of shoes: four
cardigans: four
pairs of pants: two
packs of gum: five
electronics: three

relationships:
number of times heart was broken: three
incidents of tears: one and a half
lost friends: three
gained friends: two
rediscovery of friends: one
number of fights with christopher during relationship: countless
number of fights afterwards: countless
number of successful relationships: minus one


finances:
shambles

acquaintances:
drunken facebook messages: three
drunken emails: one
drunken phone calls: three
number of attempted flirtations: six
number of successful flirtations: n/a
number of spiteful enemies: two
number of real enemies: none

education:
volumes of books read: five halves
essays done on time: still waiting
number of all nighters: nine or ten

violations:
parking: two
speeding: none
smoking on platform: one

health:
attempts to quit smoking: one
successful attempts: none, willingly so
weight loss: - 35lbs
weight gain: + 25lbs
smoking habit: one pack/2 days
drinking habit: one cocktail/3 days
chinese food: ten or eleven
number of hospital trips: one, but not self

thoughts provoked by plath:
suicide: five or six
murder: two
hatred: countless
betrayal: in the teens
animosity: still in effect

fin 2007

happy belated holidays!

listen i really am behind in general
planner has finally been somewhat organized for 2008
transfer papers have been finally begun

but regardless
happy holidays to all!
mine have been spent with cigarettes, sex and the city and vodka by my fireplace
i just needed a good excuse to show my fireplace off